have you ever..

have you ever taken a deep breath and felt aching pain in your heart...for no reason at all...

have your ears ever caught onto a tune....that plays with the rhythm of your soul and brings you to your darkest corners..

have you ever closed your eyes and when you open them again with hope, the sight that greets you is the same and nothing has changed...

why is that so?

why do i have such feelings that occurs out of nowhere sporadically throughout my life.

sometimes i close my eyes and with childlike innocence i believe that when i open it again i will open it to what i thought my life would be....that when i take a deep breath i'd feel my lungs with the cold crisp clean air i wish for so much...

i pray this childlike innocence or maybe it is naivety but i pray whatever it is.....it will help me to continue hoping and i pray that the hope i carry will one day bring me to where it is i will feel at ease.