food for THOUGHT

Being Twenty-something - they call it the "Quarter-
life Crisis. It is when you stop going along with the
crowd and start realising that there are many
things about yourself that you didn't know and may
not like.

You start feeling insecure and wonder where you
will be in a year or two, but then get scared
because you barely know where you are now.

You start realising that people are selfish and that,
maybe, those friends that you thought you were so
close to aren't exactly the greatest people you
have ever met, and the people you have lost touch
with are some of the most important ones.

What you don't recognise is that they are realising
that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or
insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job ... and it is not even close to
what you thought you would be doing, or maybe
you are looking for a job and realizing that you are
going to have to start at the bottom and that
scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what
others are doing and find yourself judging more
than usual because suddenly you realise that you
have certain boundaries in your life and are
constantly adding things to your list of what is
acceptable and what isn't.

One minute, you are insecure and then the next,
secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force
of your life. You feel alone and scared and
confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you
try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon
realise that the past is drifting further and further
away, and there is nothing to do but stay where
you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how
someone you loved could do such damage to you.
Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet
anyone decent enough that you want to get to
know better. Or maybe you love someone but love
someone else too and cannot figure out why you
are doing this because you know that you aren't a
bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups start to
look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot
don't seem as fun.

You go through the same emotions and questions
over and over, and talk with your friends about the
same topics because you cannot seem to make a
decision.

You worry about loans, money, the future and
making a life for yourself... and while winning the
race would be great, right now you'd just like to be
a contender! What you may not realise is that
everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our
best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard
as we can to figure this whole thing out.

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we
take, but by the moments that take our breath
away." It's really amazing when two strangers
become the best of friends, but it is really sad
when the best of friends become two strangers.

TO READ THE ABOVE OFF A FORWARDED EMAIL meant the world to me. To read that someone felt exactly what i did and voiced out my exact thoughts word for word is encouraging.

For this past 2 weeks i have been worried and anxious over what i do not know, and some friends suggested that i see a pyschologist because all the symthoms i had were that of someone suffering anxiety attacks. BUT after reading and adding on to the above, i guess i know what i am worried about. Just a lil bit of everything which adds up to a whole lot.