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Some of my closer friends have approached me and told me i m crossing over the line to psycho. NOt like crazy...but i am unstable and that i should seek professional help? BUT lets not get into that.
SO maybe the problem is me....ok ok...the problem IS ME. I initiated all this craziness and all.
AND maybe he just pushed me over the tip.
YEa he is a sweet nice guy BUT come on at the end of the day he is still a GUY.
i don't blame him.
he is only 22 been with me since he was 18....i m sure he'd like to have other experiences and it doesnt mean he doesnt love me. ITS all about timing.
SO he flirted with other girls i dont mind BUT i hate it that he hid it from me when i told him to just be open with me and everything is fine.
I felt something amidst and the psycho in me blew everything out of proportion.
I know everyone reckons we shouldnt be together and that we arent compatible BUT he wants to give it another try AND he has been sticking to me through all this blow out because he wants to be with me...forever. AND he is really trying.
The normal PSYCHO ME would say no, if he is trying its no natural blah blah blah....BUT a friends of mine told me "You always find the wrongs in the rights"
SO i decided since its ALL ME...I AM THE ONE THAT HAS TO CHANGE.
I have to learn to be contented and happy with myself and everything else. I have to learn and accept that i am afraid to lose him and that i am not the iron strong chick i am and that i can be jealous and paranoid.
HOW can i say no to the only guy who i ever saw in my future?
SO maybe the problem is me....ok ok...the problem IS ME. I initiated all this craziness and all.
AND maybe he just pushed me over the tip.
YEa he is a sweet nice guy BUT come on at the end of the day he is still a GUY.
i don't blame him.
he is only 22 been with me since he was 18....i m sure he'd like to have other experiences and it doesnt mean he doesnt love me. ITS all about timing.
SO he flirted with other girls i dont mind BUT i hate it that he hid it from me when i told him to just be open with me and everything is fine.
I felt something amidst and the psycho in me blew everything out of proportion.
I know everyone reckons we shouldnt be together and that we arent compatible BUT he wants to give it another try AND he has been sticking to me through all this blow out because he wants to be with me...forever. AND he is really trying.
The normal PSYCHO ME would say no, if he is trying its no natural blah blah blah....BUT a friends of mine told me "You always find the wrongs in the rights"
SO i decided since its ALL ME...I AM THE ONE THAT HAS TO CHANGE.
I have to learn to be contented and happy with myself and everything else. I have to learn and accept that i am afraid to lose him and that i am not the iron strong chick i am and that i can be jealous and paranoid.
HOW can i say no to the only guy who i ever saw in my future?
posted by the frou fr0u one at
2:14 PM
4 Comments:
"HOW can i say no to the only guy who i ever saw in my future?"
Because he may be the first, but he might not be the one and only guy you see
Don't commit to a relationship when you can't commit to yourself.
i love him and he loves me and we want to be together
yes i am screwed up but he loves me nonetheless and we will work things out.
i know i have problems and that i can be negative and slightly fickly amongst a few but i dont think i have problems committing to myself.
If i did have that problem, i wouldnt have committed to my lfie which is to make both my parents as happy as they canbe....to my job....to working and getting up everyday to earn a living and to do it well.
i agree with most things you said but not all BUt thanks for the input.
:)
dearest celyn,
hugs and kisses. cheer up babe. life can be complicated, but it can also be simple. every problem at a time :)
here for you.
carmei xoxo
yea i know...
thanks babe
hugs
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