~ childhood sweethearts ~

At some point when you were young,

one would have had a childhood sweetheart.

The first boy you met at kindy skool,

who was so sweet to you when most guys that age are like

"Ew...girls got cooties"

The first boy who had a crush on you,

who would cycle pass you house everyday and yell your name.

The first boy you had a crush on,

who you would dream of getting married and having kids with in childlike innocence

Then there is,

The first boy where the crush was mutual

and its the time you get your very first bits of the tickles

Recently, while chatting on msn with an old friend,

we suddenly brought up something from a decade and a half ago.

When i was 12 and he was 15,

it was the sweetest thing ever.

He was this cute skaterboi and i was this beachkid.

There was a cabin stay at the club so there the kids we knew

and those we didnt.

He came and he was skating up above by the tennis courts.

And i was smitten!

But you know la....ima cool kid. Buat dunno. Control Cool.

Over the day we got closer and we were so into each other.

My mum took me home cause i was 12 no overnighters for me

BUT early the next morning

i walked over to the cabins to see him.

After that day there were phonecalls and poof he just didnt seem interested.

so, tra la la when you are 12 you arent that bothered.

So, while chatting with him on msn,

we brought it up,

he was like

"you know i liked you"

i said

"damn....i liked you hella lot,

but after a few calls you just disappeared?"

"When i went back to skool,

this guys said u were seeing that other guy??"

"Wut? No we werent really seeing each other and that ended before i met you"

"DAMn...really?? I wanted to be with you

but you know i didnt wanna come in between

and mess things up for people you know.

I didnt even have a gf yet then,

you woulda been my first"

"Yea...? aWWww....that woulda been so sweet, we woulda been so sweet"

"Just imagine how we would be like....damn i regret..."

Then we went back to reminiscing and he remembered that waking up the next morning and seeing me next to him made him the happiest ever.

AND then while reminiscing,

i remembered how it was like to get your tickles for the first time

Tickles will never be the same

and the ones you get when you were sweet naive and innocent

can never be replaced.

Thanks you, for the memory and for the tickles.