my LIFE

i got a call from my 3rd uncle summoning me to go down to kl...so i
shall be moving down to kl....real real soon...this week next week
sumwhere there....n for at least a month if not more.

i m happy wif the thought of goin to kl for a while....but i m goin
from mild depression into manic depression becoz kl is fine...but i m
heading for the torture chamber.

some of u must have heard me say this but for those who havent....on a
recent trip to bangkok with the family i becoming this eager to please
weasel kinda person becoz i know i m judged by my every move n
decision n everythin.

here is an e.g.
on the first nite the AC in the room my couz n i stayed in broke down.
so her dad came in n saw n said nm tonite we just sleep but tomorrow
can change room etc...
ok so after a full day tromping around safari grounds then shoppin etc
i went to the reception to get the room changed which is wut my 5th
uncle said to do n it is the most logical thing to do right.

ok....so yesterday i got summoned
then my dad said dun bring down my ride then i said ...ok how m i
gonna get around n all..
then he said aiyoh...u arr please laa....ur 3rd uncle alredi said u
kenot take hardship in life....."your daughter arr....kenot wan la...AC
spoil also must go make big deal of it n change room"
FUCKIN HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i mean its the correct thing to do right? u pay for a room for the
service u shld get it right?????

anyway, u see wut i mean bout being judged?
well the shit thing is that its a lose lose situation...there are so
many of them there n most of em ain nice.....so e.g. i change hotel
room 5th uncle thought good...she can handle herself etc but then 3rd uncle
thought shit of me...
then if i do wut 3rd uncle would like then other uncle or ppl will
think i m stoopid or cacat or lazy....its just horifuckinble

its a no win situation its torture
wut dat hell am i sposed to do?

so no ride...in torture chamber....no ah man...
living in puchong n no i musnt go out coz i have to sit in my room n
eat a plate or hardship horseshit

sighhh