Sporadic spurts

YOU TEXT AND MESSED ME UP A BIT

"WAS YESTERDAY AWKWARD? I THINK IT WAS A BIT... :) ...DONT WANNA MAKE
YOU THINK OTHERWISE...THOSE R FRIENDS...I'M TEXTING CAUZ I DONT WANNA
WORSEN THE SITUATION AS THINGS R QUITE OK NOW ... :D"

I REPLIED

"YEA A BIT I GUESS BUT DOESNT AFFECT OR BOTHER ME. FYI I HAVENT
THOUGHT OF YOU FOR A WHILE EXCEPT FOR WHEN YOU TEXT, AND I'VE BEEN
QUITE HAPPY. DONT HAVE TO EXPLAIN YOURSELF, NO REASON. I'M
HAPPIER...MOVING ON WITH LIFE....AROUND PEOPLE WHO LOVE ME :) "

AND HE SAID

"OK :)"

WHAT I REALLY WANTED TO SAY..... -

You have to stop thinking of how you affect me. Cause you no longer do
and your existence in my life is slowly fading away.

Yes yesterday was ackward but thats normal....we were together for
over 5 years and now we arent anymore. So yea....

So you were with girls, its nothing to do with me and nothing new to me.
I dont wanna hear your explanations, cause i dunno which are lies and
which arent and frankly i dun care either.

I dont think of you anymore.

You dont want us, and frankly, now as i m getting myself back, i
realise its your loss not mine.
I may have had a bad temper and said horrible things but i was a good gf.
I have a lot of good points and i'm special in my lil way and lotsa
people love me.
You not wanting to, its your lost. Cause i know you wont find someone
like me again. But i do wish you love and happiness.
To another who knows how to appreciate me, its his gain.
And i am realising that.