the X files

Sometimes you dont remember things as well as the other party or more like.....maybe they saw the whole relationship different than how you saw it.

Which is it?
Maybe a bit of both.

So that night while out waiting my flight to chittychina, the X was along for company and we chatted and for the first time in almost a decade we werent just normal buddies but actually Xs.

We talked about us as an "us".

Apparently i was a psycho-control-freak!
I needed to know where he was who he was with.
He wasnt allowed to do this or that blah blah blah.
And thats why he didnt want to be with me.
Thats what he remembered. Though he remembers that we hardly had any arguments.

But when i look at myself now, i am so not that person.
I get suffocated.
After him i didnt even want to get into relationships.
He said after he told me about being the psycho control freak,
I said i would change and thanks to him i will.
So i wonder if its really because of him i changed?
Or more like maybe he changed me into the psycho-control-freak that i was while with him.

Thing is yes, i remember a bit about wanting to know what he was doing who he was with.
Though it was because he always made me paranoid.
He left someone for me.
He told his friend he didnt have a new girlfriend right in front of me.
He told me his friends were more important to him than me.
So yea.....this lil things drove me loco.

Bottomline i think i finally got the closure i needed after a decade.
Yea sad i know.
But sometimes things build on nuthing until they really become something.