On the relationship front, i've been thru quite a ride.

Things i have never experience, never thought i would have, now i have.

Thoughts i never thought would cross my mind, now has.

Things i never thought i wanted, now i crave real bad.

Things i use to care about, have become small matters.

Regardless of the above,

I am now trying to live without wanting so much materialistic monetary things and without beating myself up for not being successful

I am now trying to live within my means and accept it and be happy about it.

Because,

when i dont think of those immaterial things, i dont get upset and i am satisfied with where i am in life, with what i have.