What might it feel like to not be crippled by fear and self loathing....

Life's bad blah blahs

My auto-runaway-train of thoughts took over me...
together with massive PMSing,
then i told him that we wouldnt work in the long run
that i cant be simple...
eventually i wont be contented...
and that i am ultimately messed up...

Why do i always do this?
Why do i always kill something good in my life?
i swear i need to get my head examined.

I love him so much and he makes me so happy.
Yes, we should always live in the now.

- There are 2 eternities that can really break you down.
Yesterday & Tommorow.
One is gone and the other doesnt exist, so live today -

BUT
there is a tomorrow isnt there?
How can we say tomorrow won't come, tomorrow always comes.
AND what if when it comes it wont be good right and happy?