new photos on FABPHOTOS

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i finally posted my photos from Siem Reap.

Yes i know it took me half a year.

BUT in my defence my job sucks so i dont have time.

And now that i finally posted it up, in haste and at 2am in China when i gotta get up at 6am, i just wanna get it done.

ITs done and its not done right, and i dun care!

Wait i do care

no nono.....dont CARE!

ughhh

shoot me

My 70s Show

Who would play who?

Eric Forman - See Thuan Un
Hyde - Lee Beng Wee
Kelso - John Tan
Fez - Adrian Soon
Donna - Farah Aziz
Jackie - Nina Jinadasa

the X files

Sometimes you dont remember things as well as the other party or more like.....maybe they saw the whole relationship different than how you saw it.

Which is it?
Maybe a bit of both.

So that night while out waiting my flight to chittychina, the X was along for company and we chatted and for the first time in almost a decade we werent just normal buddies but actually Xs.

We talked about us as an "us".

Apparently i was a psycho-control-freak!
I needed to know where he was who he was with.
He wasnt allowed to do this or that blah blah blah.
And thats why he didnt want to be with me.
Thats what he remembered. Though he remembers that we hardly had any arguments.

But when i look at myself now, i am so not that person.
I get suffocated.
After him i didnt even want to get into relationships.
He said after he told me about being the psycho control freak,
I said i would change and thanks to him i will.
So i wonder if its really because of him i changed?
Or more like maybe he changed me into the psycho-control-freak that i was while with him.

Thing is yes, i remember a bit about wanting to know what he was doing who he was with.
Though it was because he always made me paranoid.
He left someone for me.
He told his friend he didnt have a new girlfriend right in front of me.
He told me his friends were more important to him than me.
So yea.....this lil things drove me loco.

Bottomline i think i finally got the closure i needed after a decade.
Yea sad i know.
But sometimes things build on nuthing until they really become something.

Discovery Channel : Astrology Section

Can someone with some knowledge about planetary alignment and how it affects one's life, please give me your 1800 number and i'd be calling for some advice.

Cause....
I didnt break any mirrors
No black cat crossed my path
I didnt walk under any ladders
BUT have i been dealt with some shite cards.

Lets start

Remember the travel channel.....well......
Everyone knows Airasia yea? Me and my big mouth i told a friend "nahh i doubt this flight would be delayed cause its the first flight of the day"
Everything up to the point before i reached the airport was surprisingly great.
I got picked up by my friend BusyBen and spent the evening following him all around.....and SpazTaz decided to come along and meet us, it was nice catching up, they got their massages and foot reflex.....supper.....they stayed up with me all the way till the dropped me at Central to catch the bus to LCCT....i met a nice guy chatted all the way....reach LCCT and then

*tah dah*

AK50 0630 "RETIMED"

How effin' clever are they, instead of 'delayed', they have come up with RETIMED as if it would somehow sooth one's anger.
I checked in, flight delayed till 830am.....$%@#$^%&!!!!
I waited....and waited and waited.....remember all this running on no sleep as i have been awake since 8am 24 hours before.
AND then....they announce....i thought, it was an announcement to begin boarding BUT NOOOooo....my flight was delayed ...oh wait cop tweet..."retimed" to 9 fuckin O clock!

i finally made my way to Guang Zhou and all i wanted was for rest and sleep. BUT my friggin cousin dragged me all over to see some things....with my 2 heavy bags and the rain!
Naturally i got ill......but we spent the whole day working and it got worse and the next day we were due to go into the city i was ill and i said, you got first i'll meet you in 2 hours....but for some reason my key decided not to work!!! The same key i've been using for the past half a year! So i was locked in.
I climbed into the neighbour's to try and wake him up so i could get out through his house but to no avail.

Anyway, my younger cousin came home, got me out then i left and went to meet my other cousin.
Took the bus etc all fine, got out of the station, couldnt get a cab....i hailed 6 cabs and all refused to bring me to where i needed to go.
No worries, i decided to use one of those handicap motorcab people.....one guy wanted to fuckin charge me RMB20! mBloody 'ell! I'd get there in a cab for that price.
Then a nicer dood came along and told me RMB12....got on his bike and man...he went at only 20km....so friggin slow in the hot son and pollution of guang zhou city.....ugh kill me!!!

I finally made it there lil time but got enough done.....but not all so we were due back there the next day.
We went for dinner with a supplier after, very yummy, caught the last bus homen AND GUESS WHAT?
The friggin bus stalled right outside the city at 10pm.....and because people here are a bit slow up there.....add the eediotism of this damn bus driver, it took so long to get the bus fix....fianlly we were on our way at 145am......and i finally reached home at 3am!!!!

AND GUESS WHAT, i was due up in another 4 hours to head back to that damn place!

i hate china
:(

Ok Ok i don't hate HATE it....

I think my planetary alignment is all screwy.....cause something bad happens everyday.....and i am still ill.....and i have some sort of gastric stress something which feels like 10 knives scratching inside me.

I gotta get me some;
rabbits tail
clover leaf
horse shoe
what else what else!?!?!

China Anti-Blogs

To the few people who drop by to read my blog and actually leave me comments, thanks!
China allows me to blog but i can't access blogs...however, hoorah to proxy servers!!!
Cause it allows me to read blogs, unfortunately, all i can do is read and i cant access comments, but pls do continue to leave comments as i can read them through my email notification, hoorah clever blog people!!

TRAVEL CHANNEL & FINANCE MANAGEMENT

Back to my TRAVEL CHANNEL.



Its time to start my amazing race travel......its gonna take me
like 24 hours before i get to my house there
see tomorrow morning 10am.....i go to kl by bus.....arrive at 2pm...
get a cab to my shop then hang around my shop till 6pm
then i m gonna eat dinner with ben, have coffee andwatch a movie
then mebe get to shower....then i go to central at 330am to get on
the 4am bus to LCCT...reach there 5.....then check in,
my flight is at 630 am....then i reach macau at 10am...
then i get a cab to immigration.....then i go
through both immigrations....then i walk to the bus station
get on the bus to guang zhou which will arrive around 1pm.....
then i reach then i walk home.....
AND all the time
i shall be pulling 15kg luggage with like 7 kg in my bagpack....
and i am having my period!!!
horrible
:(
feelin so crappy can cry arrRR!

so i wore my pretty Zara dress today to cheer myself up....complete with a cute rattan bag and shoes from Zara!

Dammit i just realised i will have no more retail therapy.....

Flip to FINANACE MANAGEMENT CHANNEL



i was just checking out my credit card
points to see if i finally have enough ti claim anything and i have 35,000++ points
which has been accumulated over only 3 years! Thats bad! what about when i shop and pay by cash
which i do often [i have a bad china cina uncouth habit where i carry rolls of cash......lets say
another 20,000 paid by cash means in my 4 years of working,
i spent 55,000 big ones!

i earn an average of 24,000 a year....yes yes i am finally saying out loud and posting it :-

I AM THE LOWEST PAID PERSON AMONGST EVERYONE I KNOW YOUNGER OR OLDER THAN ME!

So my 4 years of working pay accumulated 96,000 and i spent 55,000....half of it on nothing....food & shopping ! And then add my holidays and my iBook and my handfone [which i recently smashed] and another handfone oh and my SLR......which adds a good 15,000.....so i spent 70,000 of my 96,000 which means i should be left with 26,000 saved up....but i only have 15,000, so where did my 11,000 or so go???

THIS is so bad bad BAD....so i decided as off August 2007 no more shopping for me, besides i have 2 closets full of clothes i dont even get to wear cause i am all over the place
and i counted....in just the past 1 year i bought almost 20 pairs of shoes!

BUT but no retail therapy, no good food......and a shitty job....how am i gonna cheer myself up??

Fullstop

What i would give to get a [ . ] in my life!

I was just reading Lulubelle's blog and we both had this discussion on how its like to just settle.
Stop trying to look for love.
Find someone who wants to just get settled.
Settle.
Have Kids.
Full stop.
[ . ]

As in go on with the monocycle life that the universe has planned out for us and stop going against the current.
Its tiring.

Get born.
Be cute.
Go to school.
Go to uni.
Graduate.
Work.
Marry.
Kids.
Be a grandparent.
Die.

UP up & away.......... .. again ...

Here i am making a resolution to write more on my blog .
Ok i forgot to make my unnecessary rambling of the day yesterday for that i will make up for it by writting 2 today!

I've just been back for 3 weeks and i am off to dodgy dirty China again.
Ok ok...i am sure China has its pretty sights too but sadly i only ever go to GuangZhou where its dirty polluted smelly and polluted. Apparentl breathing in the air a day is equivalent to smoking like 5 ciggies a day, if thats the case, why would anyone quit smoking ?

I hate this feeling i get before i have to leave Penang again.
Not knowing when i will be back next.
Not knowing exactly what i am supposed to do there.
Wing it!
Nowadays there are just lotsa "dunnos" in my life.

I dunno where i see myself in 1 year, 5 years or 10 years.

I dont think i can take this instability in my life anymore.

I mean i can do the fly here fly there blah blah thing but i cant not know where i see my future.
How can a person carry on the everyday blindly not knowing where they are heading?
But thats what i've been doing though, i just go with the flow and before i knowit 2007 is almost over.
I dun want my life just to pass me by with me just going with the flow waiting for something to happen.
What if nothing happens?
What if it happens and i dun even know it and i just keep on waiting?

I know i sound like i am complaining, maybe i am, but this so i merely have an outlet. I go days weeks months without thinking bout my current job and where its taking me cause the "i dunno"s i get when i am trying to answer things scare me.

Most of you might just say, "cel, you are always not happy with where you are in which job you do?" but i guess most of you dun understand how its like to get paid below the taxable salary, flying all around living out of a suitcase not knowing where you future is heading.

I guess i've just been brought up to know where you stand in life and to plan where you are going so this Cinaman way of business is beyong my comprehension.

ok ok ok.....it isnt that bad.....i am PMSing and a girl is entitled to PMS and hate everything in her life at the moment even the way her hair looks or something blahh like that!

Oh i kampung jakun!

i can upload photos straight
kekekeke
dop!
kekeke
lame

its been a while...lala la ...gettin senile....walking the mile.... holding a file..bla blah

i know i know
its been a while since i wrote
and this blog is so random
it doesnt do justice to any sort of writing....so unlike my old blog.
i miss my old blog....
i wish there wasnt a blog war explosion there
i have to admit that explosion has made me lose me feel of writing
i just dont feel it anymore

OR

maybe coz my job now takes more out of me than anything ever has
i mean its crazy my nomadic lifestyle
living out od a suitcase
when people ask me where i am based now i dont even know how to answer
ermm.....i am in Guang Zhou for most of the times
but i travel to KL more often
and my things are all in Penang

OR

maybe cause as you get older nothing much really happens in you life anymore
one minute you are 28 poof another you celebrate the big 30 and poof blink of an eye another minute and ima be 40 wondering shit where did the last ten years go?

OR

maybe cause i am back blogging with an Apple
i love love love Macs.....but i gotta say.....blogger isnt very Mac friendly, so much functions i cant utilise....like coloured fonts, uploading photos....chaging my font size.....
this just makes a Mac blogger a boring blogger innit?

Then again i look back at what i just wrote and being able to come up with so much shit......kinda shows that these are all just excuses.

So yes i decided i will write something everyday even if its just a lil bit has no meaning has no impact whatsoever but starts me on the momentum of blogging again

Now i just wish that Blogger becomes more Mac friendly so that i can upload photos straight onto the post!