A new adventure ?

I am embarking on yet another path again.
Back to LAW it is.

Plans are made to be changed.
For the longest time i couldnt plan anything because i never had anything to hold me down and i never really knew what i wanted.

Now i have someone to keep my grounded and i have a new guildeline for me to keep to.
Plus, i actually know what i want, confirmed and real.
I want to have my own business.
I want a restaurant.
I want a bar.
I want a boutique.
A shoe shop.
A bag & accessories shop
& finally maybe my own label.

I want it all. . .gimme the world!!!
=p

But you gotta remember, while striving for it all you also gotta learn to be satisfied with what you have.
Because at the end, you dont wanna look back at your life and never really living it.
Because sometimes, while striving for the world, you forget to live your life and appreciate what you already have. . .

When do you say "when!" ?

I havent written in a while because i've been....happy.
Just happy.
Simple as that.

I have a guy who loves me as much as i've always wanted someone to love me.
And i want this guy to be the one i spend my tomorrows with.

But you know the feeling, when you are by the sea before a storm comes in. . .
It feels so good...sitting there....enjoying the breeze, the gloomy skies and the clear greenish colour the sea is with the clouds hovering above.
It feels good, but it still storms in.


- When do you know to say - WHEN!
To leave the sea behind, run into your car & avoid the storm. . .
Or;
Wait for the storm to hit and see how you come out of it and assess the damage down to you..

I LOVE YOU boo.
So so much.
But sometimes i feel you arent the one for me.
Deep down maybe i know you arent right for me.
We are so different.
Different lives.
Different people.
Different wants.
Different interests.
Different future.
For now. . .i love you so much i would do anything to make US work.
I've quit my job, I've changed professions, I am staying still in a place where i see no progress where i am stuck in a rutt
AND . . . i am worried.

I am worried i am even further away from the life that i want for myself.
I am worried i am digging a deeper hole to cover the previous hole.
I am worried i changed the characters in the movie BUT the storyline is still the same.
Only with an older more mature nicer better main guy character but with the same views on life.

Maybe i want this to work so bad because i am afraid to be alone, because i'm tired of meeting people...
OR;
because i love you so much.

If so, is LOVE ENOUGH?
Previous experiences in life answers, NO, love isnt enough.
Looking around friends whose relationships crumble and come to an end, answers NO.

.. . . . . . .... so tell me, when do i say WHEN ?